I am not so sure I know what I am doing anymore with this work, the temptation is to try and say something meaningful and excruciatingly resonant about the range of tapes to be shown here in Berlin that will be remembered for at least a week and a half. Most of these tapes clamoured to get done, took on a life of their own and forced my hand. That is to say they would not let me give up. Despite the relative success involved in the field, most of this work remains marginalized in the same way that poetry is subsumed by mass culture. We join together this week to celebrate shadow work which is indeed the real work in a time when everything else is for sale. I read somewhere recently that an artist is in fact given one work to do in her or his life and just keeps cutting, carving, drawing, singing and banging away at this theme, subject, inspiration, concept, motif thing until one or the other of them dies.... I think this is somewhat close to the truth. I am a slave to virtuosity. For me the personal muse cum motif in all of my work is the so-called great matter... that is the matter of life and death.
I am puzzled by peoples fear of near death experience and wonder if our fascination with glamour, power and distortion are just a string of near life experiences that serve as ersatz life until the real thing shows up in a flash just before death. I wish that some big company would loan me a sophisticated non-linear edit suite for one year so I could finish about six works which will be other­ wise stillborn due to my current (chronic) financial position. They could pretend to be like my art parents and cluck approvingly from the boardroom or be embarrased when the stock­ holders come round for tea whichever comes first...
I give good maintenance and agree with the Dalai Lama that everyone has a basic good heart. Knut Gerwers and everyone a t transmedia has my respect, admiration and gratitude for not giving up on making all this happen when the going was rough... and by the way if anyone is to be cloned - it should be Frank Zappa... Sombra R Sombra, A Mosaic for the Kali Vuga, Smothering Dreams, Obsessive Becoming